In my trousers...

Emma just took my iPod and texted Eddie telling him that I want him.. Um yeah. These are my friends. This is my life..And I'm seriously not surprised. Scratch that.

These are not my friends. They are my idiots.  Nothing can compare to them... And now I have to explain to Eddie why I "want him in my trousers"


Wish me good luck, Charlie........... This will be really awkward if your name is charlie..




Blog you later. Maybe.. I don't know...



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Breathe In..

I have to say that I am doing so much better. I didn't spend any time with friends over the weekend and I was really lonely. I made little signs that said things like,"i miss you," to my boyfriend.. haha. I'm such a freak. Anywayyys, while I was making one of the signs for him, I found a really cute quote:

He liked that one.. Hehe(:


I cried last night for the first time in about 3 months. My friend messaged me saying he wanted to commit suicide.. It scared the living daylight out of me. He had always seemed so happy.. And he never showed any signs of not being okay. His teacher had died a few days ago and I know it was really hard for him to cope with it. But killing himself wasn't the answer. I couldn't believe it. I did it. I saved him. If it wasn't for me right now, well, who knows what might have happened. I am seriously really happy that I could help him. It makes me feel super awesome that I could save him.
(:


I'll be back in like 5 minutes to post pictures of the things I made(:

Blog you later(:

Dancing with Tears in My Eyes

Crying is a sign of weakness. Don't let anyone tell you differently. Sometimes people say that it isn't a sign of weakness, rather from remaining strong too long.  It's not. You can never be too strong for anything. Being strong is what holds me together. Even when I have already fallen apart. I guess I figure that if I pretend like I am together 24/7, then everything will be okay. Like bottling something up, if I keep it to myself, then no one else has to suffer. The only one that would be hurting is me, and that is okay with me.  People ask me if I am okay and I say," Absolutely! I'm just tired." They believe me. It is the best thing ever. 


"I'm fine" is the biggest lie I could possibly say right now. But it's okay. I like it that way.


Blog you later.


-Erinthia

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EMMA:


MY PANTS FEEL THE URGE TO RIP THEMSELVES OFF OF MY BODY.

ME:

I would like that. I would like that very much.

EMMA:

AND I WANT A CACTUS. LOTS OF IT. BUT TELL NO ONE. NNNNOOOOO ONNNNEEEEEE. Kay?

ME:

Okie dokie (; It will be very pointy..

EMMA:


THE MORE THE MERRIER ^_^

Happy Birthday, Jake!(:

Hi again! Today is October 10th.. Today is a very important day. Today Cubby turns 15. Soo,



HAPPPY BIRTHDAY, CUBBY! :D

hehe.

So here I go again, today. It is 8:18 AM and I am in school, study hall, actually. I am sitting here alone because none of my friends went with me. Zack would have, but he left his planner in his locker, which he uses to sign out with. I have his locker combination and everything, and I am tempted to post it, but I won't because I am nice ^_^ Anyway, tomorrrow is Friday and the week flew by. I am super excited that I get to Six Flags with my friends.  They seriously mean a lot to me and I am incredibly lucky to have them. I went with about 20+ people to Homecoming and we had a blast. No one feels left out or uncomfortable, and we are all there for one another. I  love them so much and its hard to express that in a paragraph.


Emma and Cheyenne showed up and they love me. :D I made Emma a paper. I will have to show it to you, sometime. If anyone is even reading about my incredibly uninteresting life. I doubt any people really are. They just look at it, amused that there is a 14 year old psychopath on the looose who likes to stab people 37 times and eat their hands. My stomach was making the rubmlies that only hands would satisfy. ^_^


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Somewhere we went wrong. We were once so strong. Our love is like a song. You can't forget it.

-Demi Lovato, Don't Forget

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Close your eyes

Release the ties

They say wisdom is better than silver and gold

So just be bold

Don't let them break you

Don't let them make you

You are perfect the way you are.

Lullabys wake me please.

Standing is better than falling down.

Go ahead and break your bounds.

Flowers grow and thrive way faster than you die.

In your life.

In your victory.

Don't you walk away.

Today is your day.

To show them what you are really made of.

Beat the drums and stomp your feet.

With just one single heartbeat. 

You can make a difference that will change.

-In My Victory -Erin Fowler <3

Busy Weekend!

Herrow.. ^_^



Today is the third of October. Fun :3 Anyway, I have about 20 minutes until I go home, which I am totally okay with. My contact has been ripped, and I was too lazy to get another, so now my eye is super irritated and I am blind in one eye. Yippee..... The first time I laughed all day was in Math. Sam moved his head back to the person behind him and started barking. I practically died. And apparently, I was the only one who thought it was hilarious. So now, I am in a super giggly mood and I can't stop laughing at every stupid thing.

I woke up sadly, to find out it was only Wednesday. As much as the week has gone by quickly, it isn't quick enough.  I have such a busy weekend... On Friday, I go to Six Flags right after school until midnight when it closes, because of Fright Fest, and I got a free ticket for someone. My boyfriend and I were going to go alone, but I think that we are just going to get a group of people, instead.

 On Saturday, I am going apple picking with my family to Eckerts in Illinois. It's a family tradition, and I am allowed to bring a friend. Last year, my cousin brought a friend and I was a total third wheel and ended up hanging out with my other cousin, who is three. But my best friend, Allison's birthday is on Sunday, so she wanted me to sleep over on Saturday and spend all day Sunday with her for her birthday. I don't know what time we will get back from apple picking, though. Last year it was around 4, because my grandparents are getting really old and it's hard for them to walk around for a long amount of time.

So, I don't know what will happen, but my friends were talking about going to a haunted house this weekend ): Hopefully, we will end up going next weekend, instead.

Well, I should probably get going. Contact time is ending and I am tired of typing this with one eye closed.  xoxoxo

BLOG YOU LATER! :D

Another Tiring Day For A Hopeless Kitty..

Today is the day of October 2nd. I am bored beyond belief and EXTREMELY exhausted. I have a rip in my contact, and I am cranky. I am sitting here, again in study hall, next to Cheyenne and Zack. I want to go to sleep. Badly. I just took a Biology test, and he told us it would be the hardest test we've ever taken. ALSO, The average for the other class that took it was 65.... *_* Like that makes me feel any better..



 My family isn't helping, either. My mom is tired and stressed for some stupid reason and she won't leave me alone. I also haven't been turning in my math homework, which I seriously need to stop doing. I don't wanna get bad grades. My Bio grade is already gonna suck with the test I just took, because I already have a B- In that class.. I am not in  a good mood today, as you can probably already tell.I just want to go home, have nobody disturb me, curl up, and cry myself to sleep.




I'm done with the dirty looks I get in the hallways, and for what? I say hi to someone in the hallway and they look at me like I just peed my pants.



" The things you hear about me might be true, but then again it might be as fake as the jerk who told you."





Somehow when I listen to music that matches my mood, I feel 20000000 times better. It gives me comfort and soothes me.  I know that nobody understands my situation. But when I sing, or listen to my music, all of my worries slip away. Like I just take an orange, and sqeeze everything out. I love it. I wish I didn't carry every single burdon that my parents put on me. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of home. I just want to go to sleep now and be with my friends.




On the plus side, I have Revelations next, so I get to sleep. YAY. We are watching a movie, and she won't even notice. What is the worst thing she could say? "Erin wake up!" Exactly my point.

" How others see you is not important, but how you see yourself means everything."


Well, I'm gonna go sleep and talk to my friends. Thank you for listening, if any of you are <3

 BLOG YOU LATER :D



Does this sound like a helicopter? BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! :D <3